I have this headache that just won't go away. I keep taking advil but it doesn't seem to help. Over the last few days I am spiraling into boredom. The less I do the more bored I become. I more bored I have become. I predict that I really will be a vegetable by the time the new year comes around. Good thing we finally have the satelite working, at least I can veg in style while watching TMN.

Almost 4 years of University, you would think that I would be able to install the satellite system we gave my dad for Christmas. 4hours later and we still have no signal to write home about. On the other hand it took me less than 5 minutes to install ADSL for my mom and get her working on it.


My mom needs a silencer. All day she was yelling at me and telling me how to install the satellite like she was some expert. The knowledge she had was what she read in the manual and what she made up. She does that quite often but she will never admit to it. My Mom is great though, she always makes me laugh with her antics. The other day she tried to open the car window but instead repeatedly locked the car doors and then got frustrated because the windows wouldn't open. My family just laughed, then because you could open the window she opended the door to wish people Merry Christmas.

It's over. I blinked and it was gone. The holidays always seem to be so quick. It must be all the anticipation. So much to say, so little time while I am stuck on dial-up. Yes, I know that I am a high speed snob. I actually tried connecting to the internet by placing the phone cord in the ethernet port on my laptop. It took me a while to figure out why it didn't work.


Christmas was good, but now I am stuck in the after math. I have a thousand some odd people to visit and only a couple of days to do it.


Are your grand-parents still around. If so you should go visit them and talk to them. They have so much to say. My Oma and Opa (because i have a dutch background) recieved a mini-disc system to attach to some paradigm speakers (the best speakers ever, yes I am bias I am related to the owners) to. I was rewarded the honour of bringing it over and showing them how to use and install it. Not an easy feat for 80+ but I did it, afterwards we chatted. They had so much to say about their lives and choices and the war. It's really amazing what it takes to get you to where you are today. Go talk to you grand-parents, you'll be glad you did.

Ugh, I know that it has been a while since I lasted posted anything. It's partly because I am home and we don'y have cable or dsl. (don't worry I am fixing that with this years gifts). I'll try tp keep everyone happy with perioditic posts. They will get more numerous as my vacation progresses.


Since I haven't checked my email in a couple of days I had about 12 when I downloaded them. One was from my work asking if It would be okay to start in the 8th instead of the 3rd. No it is not okay, of course I can't actually say that. I have to say something polite to get my point accross. I already have a place, a time to m ove and the day that I planned on starting work. I would like it to remain that way. The only thing they could do it to say here is the 3 days pay you'd miss. Plus i am returning so it's not like I need to be oriented that much, just a little. The company has been assimilated since I left in September.

Oh yeah, I was celebrating last night because I was finished exams. The bad thing is I am done this term and now I have to pack up all my things and move today. Moving and being ever so slighty hung is not a good combination. It could be worse my one friend was so hung over in first year that she missed the airporter and her flight home to Regina. She managed to get another flight and take an hour cab ride to get there. The whole time she was in the terminal she was sick. The best part is she told her parents that she had the flu and they believe her to this day.

I woke up this morning in my own filth. My room was upheaved, things were everywhere and the floor was wet unlike my tongue. When I opened my mouth it felt like sand-paper. I touched it just to see what a dry tongue feels like. It felt weird. After drinking a gallon of water I returned to my warm bed and the stanky-smell in my room. It is better now, my tongue is wet instead of the floor and the smelly pizza boxes are gone.


The weird thing about drinking is that when you get home you are willing to do just about anything to get PIzza. Even when it is after 2:30am and every place you can think of closed at 2. We still managed to find one though and we were mostly passed out by the time it arrived. Then the same old thing happened. I blinked my eyes and all the pizza was gone and everyone decided to go to bed.

It's offical. Much Music is playing that song It's Christmas from Band Aid. There is also that save a poor child commercial running in full force. These two signs have made it impossible for me to try to ignore the fact that Christmas is only five days away and I am still not done my shopping.


Oh, the Band Aid band is telling me to feed the world. Oh wait, now we have a U2 christmas song. I really should change the channel and go back into denial.

Uh Oh! Someone has beat me to registering beautifulmidnight.com, what am I going to do now. Any suggestions on new site names?

What's up with that damn maze of porn! You and friends decide to go that link that some anonymous person sends you through ICQ. You go there, are totally grossed out and close the page. But wait when, you close the page another thousand pages open, and so on as you close more. Before you know it you have an exponential number of pages open and you have to reboot just so your computer doesn't feel dirty.

I think I can answer the question, "why is the enviroment degrading so quickly?". Based on observation today at least 90% of cars that passed me only had one person in it. This seems a little high to me, do people even try to car pool anymore. I really think people should try harder otherwise. Otherwise something really bad will happend. Yes, something bad, I am just not ready to tell you what. It's all a mystery.

Well, one more final written today. All in all it went okay. But Murphy's Law struck again. For this class you were allowed to bring in a cheat sheet. I filled it with everything I thought I could possibly need. Apparently I was wrong because there was one question at the end that asked to run some crappy 2-approximation algorihtm that I didn't write on my sheet. Damn! six marks gone. What can you do, what happened has happened.

I called my landlord today to get a receipt for the four months that I have been living in the Crackhouse now. (I am so glad it is over now, I can move onto some place that isn't cold and doesn't smell like mouse shit when the oven is turned on) Everytime I talk to my landlord I end up babbling. It's because I am trying to compensate for his lack of talking. He really says nothinf more than yes, no and the occasional grunt.


If you are one of the aforementioned type of person I beg you to stop! You are making me feel like a dork.

BTW I recieved my first Christmas present of the year. A nice deposit in my chequeing account. It was for the employee referral program at my last job. I wasn't expecting it for another month. I think It went through becasue they have to clear the books this year because the company was bought out. You don't hear me complaining. Woo Hoo, I have money at the end of a school term for once. This is great.

I really hate trying to sleep. For the last week I have been lying in bed for at least an hour before I finally nod off. This is semi normal for me but it usually doesn't take so long, and once I have fallen alseep I am out until the next morning. This is not true, the slighest noise seems to be waking me. Especially room mates late at night. It's really weird cause it never has happened to me before. It's like I have this heightened sense of hearing at night and I am just waiting for somthing to happen. What that something is I really have no idea, I guess we will just have to wait and see.

Help Me. I am having serious issues studying. The first 3 have wiped me out. I no longer care at all about my last 2 finals. This always seems to happen to me. I need some help here. Make me care, or at least instill fear in me. Only these 2 forces can drive me to study. Without them it is utterly useless. Maybe some how while I am sleeping I will get a clue. Something must click to change my emotional state. Ahhh, why can't I care.



I really don't feel like myself. What is going on here. I feel like a blob. I have no desire to do anything. What is that noise? I shall go investigate.

The blanket finally let me go. I feel so lost without it now. Please take me back blanket. Life without you is meaningless!

Help! My bed has me hostage. It refuses to let me go. I need to study, but the warm warm blankets hold me captive. (Solution: make blankets mobile)

The bad thing about being in school around Christmas time is that your are studying for finals instead of doing your Christmas shopping. I know that you are thinking that finals are more important. That may be, but Christmas shopping is far less stressful. You have to think of the perfect gift. That is only half the battle then you need to find. That seems esay you think. Just go to the mall. You see, that where it gets messed up. The perfect Christmas present is almost as good as finding a place to park at the mall. This is one of the most difficult feats in the world. That and manouvering through traffic.All those things combined I would rather forget about giving gift at all. Then I remember the look people get in there eyes when you give then a gift.


What we really should do is randomly buy gifts for loved ones. This way they won't expect it and it will have much more of an impact... Just a thought.

I wish Saturday mornings were like they use to be. When ever I try to sit down and wacth cartoons all saturday morning I end up giving up around 10. At this time, all the really crappy shows like Hang Time and City Guys comes on. These not only suck but are rather painful to watch. I wish such popular shows such as Tiger-Cats, Smurfs and Transformers were still on. Then I would have some quality cartoons too watch.

How many things do you have aournd the house that you never use. The only reason you have it is because you might need it. I have mouthwash that I never use. I floss everyday and brush at least twice if not more, but I never use that mouthwash. Why do I even have it. It's just ornamental mouthwash. It must be lonely. Let me know what you have sitting around not being used. I'll post the most amusing ones.

The one good thing about moving every four months is that you never hold to crap. I would rather pitch something than pack it up and move it.

Award shows have this knack for drawing my attention. I end up watching performances of bads that i never listen to any ways. Normally if I heard someone like Nelly I would skip it, but not on an award show. For some reason I have to watch and make fun of it. I guess it just amuses me. Especially the way some of the most famous people dress. Maybe I watch just waiting for a glimpse of some star that I like.I think I need to find something more contructive to do with me time. Hmm, maybe I should study.

I was able to write the other exam that was postponed today. That means I get 2 more days for Christmas. The exam was such a joke too. It was 100 multiple choice questions. I was done in 40 minutes but had to stay for an hour because of University Regulations.



The other weird thing that happened was I sort of was picked up. This girl that I had seen in the SLC (student life center) came over an sat by me. We chatted for about a half hour and then exchanged names. When I said that my name was Brad she said she was surprised. Apparently she had thought of a few names for me since the last time she had seen me. One of the options was Andrew. I asked her why and she said it was becase Andrew meant manly or something like that. It's weird to think that strangers think about you even though they don't know you. I guess it isn't too starnge, I do it all the time.

If you think you have the time you should check out Madonna's concert online. It is up until the 19th. Madonna has always put on a good show. I am sure everyone has watched Truth or Dare.

I wrote my final today. It went okay but had a few weird moments. Right in the middle of the exam the prof left leaving nobody in the room to supervise. This is in character for him though. He also gave solutions to an assignment out before the assignment was due. Then when I was finsihed and handed the exam in he gave me this deer caught in the headlights kind of look. It was really weird. I am not to sure what he was doing. Maybe he was surprised that I finished it early.

It was a long sncow day yesterday. It started with the Sound of Music and ended with drunk make-overs. The girls decided that they wanted to do girlie things while we were drnking. To abstain for comeplete boredom the guys did things to themselves or let the girls did it. When I woke up this morning my hair was super-ass-crusty. It was just about the grossiest feeling thing I have ever felt in my hair. My eyes had also been done. All I have top say is guys simply aren't equiped to handle make-up. First of all it is uncomfortable. Secondly, it's too hard to take off, and lastly I don't need. (not that anyone does). Needless to say me an make-up is not happening again. Unless I become an actor or a model or something that requires it. But in that case I won't have to put it on our take it off.


I was pleased to see that I have alternate time to write one of my postponed exams. This is a good thing. I was ready for it yesturday so I will be ready for it today.

Its officual, at least I think it is. The UW web site says that the University has been closed. I am really not happy about this. It is 6:30 in the morning. I am ready to write TWO finals and now I have to wait until the 22nd. What a waste of my precious time. This is just going to delay my Christmas Holidays. This really sucks for anyone who was suppose to fly home and now has to stay to write. This is going to cost people a lot of time and money. Stupid snowstorm, it made me cranky. The truth is we know it is not too hard to make me cranky in the morning, but the snowstorm did it.

*#^@! stupid university has closed down. That means that the stupid TWO exams I was ready to write today have been pushed back until the 22nd. This is really go to screw some people over. Especially those that are suppose to fly home on the 22nd but now have to stay and write on the 22nd. Did I mention that I am not happy about this.

After further reading at plasticbag.org, Tom has made today the official tribute to Buffy. I thought about following suit, but how would that really change anything. I love buffy everyday of the week. I don't think I could save it all for one day.

When I was a kid there was nothing better than a snow day. School would be cancelled and I would play outside throwing scowballs and building snowforts. This would go on for hours until I was wet to the skin and would go inside for lunch and then do it all over again. Now I am 22, in the third day of exams and hoping that school won't be closed tomorrow because if it is I would have to write my 2 exams on the 22nd. Isn't it odd how things change. Under any other situation I would love a snow day. I always like to miss work or school, no matter what the reason, legit or not.

I totally agree with Tom's post today at plasticbag.org about obsessions with Buffy. I have felt this way for a while. When there was a competition between Buffy and Britney. I chose Buffy, maybe I will give the descision one last chance. Who ever comes out with a poster that involves them in leather pants eating cheese will win. It's a win-win situtation everyone would get a laugh if it actually happened and I would get what I wanted. I really like them. I really like them in leather pants, and I really like cheese. Mmmm cheese.

The Christmas Stuffing: Better known as over-eating throught the duration of the Holidays. It all comes down to one premiss. People don't seem to be able to sociallize without food or beverage. This is why you go for "coffee" , have "dinner" parties and go out for "drinks". We simply have the need to have something else to give an excuse to do something. The eating also helps to alleviate lonliness and tough situations at the table. Any ways, the whole thing is magnified at Christmas. This is why turkey is choosen. It takes a long time to prepare giving an excuse for delayed meals times aka staying longer. The meal itself may also contain several courses including salad, second, third and possibly fourth helpings. Then there is the "we should wait" time for dessert time.



Now, you are wondering why such an elaborate plan at Christmas. Simple, this all really a ploy to get family to stay together. Most families do not like to spend time together. Especially extended family. This is why Parents, and Grand-Parents host the affairs. Everyone is forced to spend a sizable chunk of time with one another. All in all it really is quite self-serving.

I am stuck in limbo. I am this studying machine that can communicate with others but what I say is not very intellectual or deep, unless it concerns what I am studying. Studying has change my brain wave patterns. I want them back!

When I was in grade school we used to mark each other's test. We would take the test and after that the teacher would tell us to pass them back or forward. Then she would read out the answers and we would mark the tests. It wasn't that easy though, students would raise their hands to ask questions. Of course we already knew the answer to the questions we asked, what we really wanted to do was harass the person whose test we were marking. We would try to embarass them by pointing out the stupid mistakes they made. By the time this process was over the teacher would have the last laugh. She would make you shout out your mark as she entered it in her book.



Looking back now this method of education doesn't seem so great. All the teacher has to do is write a test. The students take it and then mark it. That seems pretty lazy to me. Is there some lesson that students learn from this? Do you think they still do it today?

I feel so unrested this morning. I went to bed around 1am and got up at 9:30 this morning. I swear every hour on the hour I woke up. So even though I managed to sleep a long time it was wasted and disturbed. I really hate that. I will try not to be too cranky today. I think I am really too old to be cranky still any ways.

As it turns out there is a reason that we should be going to class. In rare situations the prof will give out information that is useful for the final that is not available in the course materials. I think I have learned this lesson many times but it never seems to sink in. Oh well I think I was much happier when I had my psychotic episodes. It's liberating to be crazy. You should try it sometime.

I am right on schedule. Every time I go throught finals. It must be finals, not midterms. I slowly go crazy. I think it has to with the combination of pressure and fear. You really have no time for anything and its not really worth stressing about so instead I take on a mild psychotic disorder. It usually starts with some weird voice that i have made up. I use it once and then before you know it I use it all the time to relieve the pressure and stress. This years voice is "a fatta nina". My room mates where watching the Young and the Restless as I walked by she came to life. So now I make up stories about her and 'skinny Tomas'. I am so normal aren't I. At least I am still happy and not ready to kill someone like other University students.

No matter how many times I watch The Crocodile Hunter it never ceases to amaze me. Practically every episode he finds some innocent creature and he explains it to the audience as we watch for the animal to crack and attak him. On occasion this actually happens. I have seen a whole show dedicated to him being attacked. Today's show was about tree snakes. Even though I have watched him pick up snakes by their tail many times I am always perked up in my chair just waiting. Just waiting for the innocent venomous snake to lay it's fangs into Steve. You would be surprised but this truly does entertain me. That along with his soothing "it's alright mate" comments that he says to the animals. Strangly enought it works. It must otherwise he should really be dead by now.

I was going to grow a beard for the holidays. My reasoning was that I could detract attention from my ear and put it on my face instead. By the time I finished shaving I realized how stupid it looked and got rid of it. I might as well go into Christmas with neon lights around my ear. That's what my mother really want any ways.

In my travels at the Math C&D I saw a new flavour of Snapple. It was some sort of grape and something or other punch. Can you guess what it was called. It is called "Earth". They must have been on crack to get this one by. I have only taking one marketing class but I am pretty sure that you don't want people to think of dirt while they are drinking your product. Even m&m's smartened up and changed plain to milk chocolate. I think that Snapple really should follow suit.

There is nothing better than waking up to discover an hour that you thought was lost. This morning I woke up at 9 am. I thought wow I feel refreshed after that 9.5 hours of sleep. It was actually only 8.5 hours. I thought is was 9 because my remote was cover the 8 making it look like a 9. Any ways this lead me to the realization that I had an extra hour I wasn't counting on. Normally I would have just gone back to sleep, but since it is finals time I was excited about another hour to study. My priorities are definitly mixed up.

Dude, where's my car? is going to turn out to be a funny movie I think. Everytime I see the preview it cracks me up. My only hope is that the bits in the preview are not the funniest one. That is always such a let down when it appears.


If you aren't doing anything tonight I suggest that you watch a Christmas Story on the family channel. It is very funny and will help you get into the Christmas Spirit.

I am really becoming frustrated with my math assignment. I am positive that I am doing it correctly but I keep having to do iterations. I have tried it twice and quit both times once I hit the 8th iteration. This is the hardest I have ever worked on an assignment for my math class this term. I wonder why after all these months I finally decided to try now. It must be the FEAR!

Ahh, no more classes to go to this term.

You know what I really like about cold weather. The way you can see your breadth. It's a sign that says you are alive. You can feel the air as it goes in your lungs. You can feel it warning up inside you and then you expel your warmth out into the cold world where it is not accepted. Instead it puts on a big show and disappears.

Our last ditch effort to studying for exams was a Christmas party held at the big white house. It was a good time all our friends were there. Some we wanted there, some that we did not want there. At midnight we had a gift exhange. Everyone who wanted to participate brought along a five dollar gift and tried to wrap it up all pretty so it would be choosen. I ended up with a nice cup and some candles. Not my first choice but it will do. I am going to do the unthinkable and recycle that gift. I know its wrong, but candles just aren't my thing. The thing that I find most humerous about my friends is that the gifts had quite a range. Some recieved a bible fun kit and another recieved a specialty magazine along with a box of kleenex. Yes I know, I need some new friends.

There is nothing worse than waking up cold. I tried for about an hour to scrunch myself into a tiny ball to retain heat. It just didn't work. When I got out of bed I had to but on a hat and mitts. Upon further inspection the furnace doesn't seem to be working, so I called the landlord. The first question he asks, "Are you out of oil?". If I weren't so nice I think I would had a few things to say to him. I am not stupid, don't you think that is the first thing I checked.

Yes I know it is Claus.

I thought I would give my parents a little motivation to write their wish lists. Here is what I said.


Mom and Dad, you have 5 hours to submit your wish list. If not, a team of highly trained elves will be dispatched to abduct you. You will be taken to the North Pole where you will be subjected to various "Christmas" tortures to get the lists out of you. I am not kidding, and if you think Santa Claws is nice about these sorts of things, you are wrong. Be forewarned!