In the last few days I have done many things, I've

• been to the East Bay and Berkley.


• listened into to the conversations of Freshman on the Berkley campus, watched them march around lost while I posed as a student


• been asked directions every single day, not because I look like I am from the area, but because no one really is


• been asked so many times if I am going to burning man that I am willing to say I am.


• see the same girl at each of the clubs that I have been too


• reached my saturation point for all things trance/house


• walked across the Golden Gate bridge


• been educated on many forms of narcotics


• missed ...


• realized travelling alone is not that much fun. It is better to share the experience with someone.


• been able to resist from killing my brother


• been reflective


• started reading a new book


• been checked out and rated by many men in the Castro Area


• tried to immerse myself in a culture and not do the touristy things. I don't want to see, I want to understand. Why is everything so different here? It's all the same but not really at all.


• suffered withdrawl from my daily reads but are no longer dependent on them


• encouraged to be"real" and not do what I think is right but to do what will make me happy because in the end the only person I can control is myself. But, how do you look past the faces that you disappoint along the way?